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ok guys i got a new live journal site its angelboundtodie so just add me and i'll add you back later
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[25 Jan 2004|08:15pm] |
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Our band has our first show www.sevendaylie.com BUY A TICKET OR ELES! =P odd project will be playing and a few others goign to be a sick show so GO!
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[22 Jan 2004|10:53pm] |
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well its been hard the last week . every time i look at her i want to like fall down to the floor and just scream. theres always something to bring back the memroies. it hurts alot. this whole week i thought about all i have been missing. holding her hand, staring deeply into her eyes, walking down the street holding each other to keep us warm, having people tell us how cute of a couple we were, knowing somone you love is holding your heart in the palm of there hands, knowing that someone feels the same way as you do about them. i miss so much. i miss her. i miss being the one standing by her side holding her hand. its hard to accept that this is the end of something to me that was so great. i mean, nothing feels the same anymore. everywhere i look something will remind me of her and the nights we spent together. the sars,the beach, even just walking down a street bring back memories. those times are always going to be something to cheris and always something to break my heart. i can only hold a fake smile for so long. each day seems to get harder and harder to face. there will never be any one that could take her place. iam just scared someone will take mine. </3
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[18 Jan 2004|12:48pm] |
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well lot of stuff happend last night. it was horible i just want to say thanks to josh,carlos,chris,jordan and anthony. i mean if wasnt for you dude i dont know what would happend to me and i thank you man all of you guys.
well i woke up feeling different today, like i lost a big part of my self. i know why it happen and i kinda understand. i just wish that i could of done something different to not have this happen. i just wish that what we had could be stronger . but it seems now that its far to late to wish for such a mirical to accure.after last night i dont think i will be the same as i was befor. last night was probley one of the worst or maybe even the besti dont know anymore. iam sorry for everything though . iam not saying iam blaming all this on me but i get my share. the memories will always be there to kill my dreams, and the feeling will always be inside to make me numb on the out side. a promis is a promis and i wont fall to my kness and break it. you know how i feel and i know how you feel. iam sorry that this had to turn out like this . i honestly did not exspect it. that feeling will always be there. the feeling noone had ever made me feel befor .something so perfect that it was too good to be true.i mean what i said and i only speak what my heart tells me too. i dont regret what i said , i dont regret the actions made.to every action theres a reaction or a punishment i dont know how to explain how much i want to have somehting more between us something more stronger. that feeling wont change.EVER. either will the feeling you made me feel. you showed me what its like to be in love. somthing i never thought i would get a tast of, something i never thought exsisted.that feeling is always there and so are the words "I love you" you brought to me happyness with knowing that i gave YOU the key to my heart. something i never can give to anyone eles. your always goign to be somehting that brings a chill to my body or buterflies in my stomach.love is not just a word,its about sacrfices and changes . its about being happy and feeling something that you never have befor. love is .. doing something for someone that you wouldnt think about doing ever. its about being comited and being strong. haveing hope and faith and something to looks forwerd to. something that doesnt just happen to you every day. simularaties and differences. being there with open arms to run to when something horrible happend to them. love is only a word unless you show it . unless you feel it. i just want to say thank you for showing me what love is and making me feel it. and there wouldnt anyone i would share my heart with but you. i love you with every bit of my heart. iam here for you no mater what. i love you lauren and i only could love you . just keep in mind my arms are open wide and my heart still remain next yours, your still the one in my dreams standing by my side hand'n'hand. your still that when i look at the stars i see your eyes. or when i walk along the pear i will remeber staring into the ocean with you by my side.iam happy it was you i was with iam happy that it was you who made me understand and know what love really is. thank you for showing me what its like to be inlove.
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[16 Jan 2004|11:31pm] |
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"My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it."
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[16 Jan 2004|11:19pm] |
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Dont you hate it when your confused about somehting that means more then the world to you? Someone/thing that you love sooooooo much but seems like its all fadeing away and you feel so weak and helpless to hold onto it and you blame everything thats goign wrong on your self? Well thats how its been for the past week. scared, confused, nervas and hoping for better to come. iam scared that i might lose the one thing that means sooo much to me and iam nervas because i dont know what to exspect next. iam hoping for a better tomarrow, for a better feeling then all this. i want ME to be happy. thiking about the saying my friend said to me a while ago "Hope for the best,but exspect the worse" runs through my head. iam stll holding on and iam not planing to let go. and i wont give up on something that means this much to me. my fingures are crossed for something good to look forwerd too.We"ll see what happens.
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[16 Jan 2004|04:55pm] |
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ok i found out something strange that i didnt know . i found out that peter cottentail is a freaking rabit! i never knew that he was a rabit till today and it always bugged me becaus ei never saw him befor. well now i know hes a rabit and that cought me by surpize hah ok well you learn new things every day i gues.
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[14 Jan 2004|07:31pm] |
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The Beginning
i see who you are and who else can compare
i meant what i said, i promised to stand by your side
until the end, that's where we begin
from here to eternity we begin understanding
it is our hearts that define what has meaning in life
some will ask how can this be
but it was you who made me feel.
-as i lay dying-
~*<3Lauren<3*~
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[14 Jan 2004|04:36pm] |
E stands for pants.
figure that one out!
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[13 Jan 2004|07:47pm] |
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well iam like wow bored!! i have a headache right now and it sux like hXc. oh well umm... yeah.... i dont really know what to write. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . MEOW!
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[11 Jan 2004|09:31pm] |
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well as i lay dying was awsom i had a good time there. they played a really good show. well last night i had a really horible dream i mena i woke up practicly crying.it made me sad all day becauseof it . it was about as bad as it gets and iam so happy it was only a dream and i know that it wont ever happen. well skool tomarrow guess i will see some of you guys there .
~No Poetic Device~
"A deadly secret only I suffer to know. I can't eradicate what awaits when I awake... break.
I die in my day dreams."
*AFI*
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[07 Jan 2004|10:40pm] |
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well not much has been hapning just skool skool skool. the good thing is is that iam feeling a little bit better.i dont have a cold or anything i just been feeling like crap for the week.oh well hopully it wont be as bad for this sat i get to go see as i lay dying,and on broken wings at chain its goign to be so awsom i cant wait!the only bad thing is we have have to walk from euclid to ceritos whitch is about a 3 hour walk or something. we did it once we left at like 11:30 and got back at like 2 or 3 or something.we also got huge ass rocks thrown at us. we didnt get hit because if we did we would be in wheel-chairs ha! hopfully it wont happen again because that would SUCK if we got hit! well iam hoping me and lauren get to hang out some time this weekend ~*crosses fingures*~ =P that would be great. well i guess i will see some of you at skool.
*~wove you lauren~*
~collision~
"can you understand my meaning hidden in the roses around my eyes
i want you to know how much it means to have you in my life"
-as i lay dying-
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[05 Jan 2004|06:53pm] |
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FOR SOME REASON IAM NOT FEELING SO GOOD RIGHT NOW. I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG BUT I FEEL ...BAD. I DONT KNOW MAYBE IAM JUST TIRED OR SOMEHTING . I HOPE IAM NOT GETING SICK I DONT FEEL LIKE IAM . HRMMM... I FELT LIKE THIS YESTERDAY TOO. NOT TO SURE WHY BUT I GUESS I CANT HELP IT. WELL HOPFULLY TOMARROW I WILL FEEL BETTER. I HOPE =/
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[05 Jan 2004|05:07pm] |
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well today was the first day of skool from geting back to break..blah! oh well i got to see some friends whitch was kool. got to see lauren too =D i didnt get any sleep last night though i had the worst stomy ach i was up till like 4 whatchhing americam wedding (funny movie) and i woke up at 6:30. i tried sleeping in class but couldnt. oh well hofully tonght will be better well hope you guys had at least an ok day at skool =D
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[04 Jan 2004|08:51pm] |
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skool tomarrow nooo!! this is lamei dont want to go back. i dont think any one does. oh well at least i will see all of my frieds there =D today was so boreing i satayed home all day i got a hair cut though oh what fun! but thats about it though nothing esiting. this break was alot of fun though probley the best ever. hung out withh all my firnds got spent d-mas eve with lauren <3 had so mcuh fun its a shame it has to some to an end oh well though apways summer =D geuss i will see every one at skool
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[04 Jan 2004|01:44am] |
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MEOW!
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[03 Jan 2004|01:13pm] |
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yay!! i got to see lauren today!! i thought i wasnt going to but i did iam happy =D i had alot of fun tonight hung out with the gang katie,geret,anthony,chris,jordan,carlos and *lauren* its always fun hanging out with them and chris that was so awsom you huged that one guy man i felt bad for him me and lauren were tlaking to him while i was walking her home he was nice i think you made him feel special because you huged him haha but that was kool though dude well i hope you all are having fun on your last days of break see you at skool
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[02 Jan 2004|11:14pm] |
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ok... it makes me so mad because this stupid plastic head makes me look stupid because i cant put it to gether i dont understand this thing i swear if i saw the person who made this i would ..... give him a dirty look and yell at him/her
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[02 Jan 2004|11:08pm] |
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ok.....! you know what the hell with this damn cube iam so pist at it AHH! geeeez!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !
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[02 Jan 2004|03:42pm] |
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ok iam geting so damn fusterated with this damn arubix cube omfd! its shaped as homers head and its so #$$#^% hard to make. i would get so close and then theres that one damn side that is left out and the only way to make it fit is to mess everthing eles up. who ever made this thing up DANM YOU! its so freeaking adicting too and thats the worst part of it you cant put the damn thing down. ahhhhhhhh1!!!
i have headache =(
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